I spent many years thinking negative thoughts... I was never smart enough, good enough, skinny enough. I never had enough time, money, energy... In 2008 my marriage, of only 18 months, was over; I had moved to Arizona with my 14-month-old son, had no job, was borrowing my brothers car, lived with my parents. I was in a very very low place; it was suggested to me that I read "You Can Heal Your Life" by Louise Hay. It was after reading and really allowing myself to take each day and apply what the book taught me that I began to see how my thoughts were creating my reality.
New Years Day was filled with possibilities, my thoughts were positive, THIS was the year that I would be my own boss, THIS was the year that I would make time for the things I love (spending time with family, hiking, camping, horses). Then January 11, 2017 my world came to a halt. My father was diagnosed with esophageal cancer. While watching my two children during their gymnastics class my father called me that the test had come back positive for adenocarcinoma. The world stopped for a moment, things were in slow motion. I had no reaction, maybe I shed a few tears. We are now in a battle for his health, for his life. This is my reality, right now, I am sitting in a Cancer Research Clinic in Glendale, AZ while my father is hooked to an IV for fluids that his body needs. My thoughts are remaining positive. Positive that this cancer will be healed, positive that this will be a story with a happy ending that we will be able to talk about for years to come. I listen to the other patients here, most are cautiously optimistic. I keep thinking about the lessons in Louise Hay's book... positive affirmations, knowing that my thoughts create my reality. This time I am really being put to the test....
It would be so easy to fall into the negatives of cancer; Hell, even telling people he has cancer they react with sadness and the idea that this is a death sentence. Guess what!? It is not. I believe that anything is possible. I believe that mindset is paramount to any battle, be it mental or psychical. We are choosing positivity, we are using visualization, energy healing and other techniques to keep pain under control. Your mind is a POWERFUL thing.... when you begin to shift your way of thinking amazing things begin to happen!